Pre-cancer, I thought of myself as relatively straightforward and honest most of the time with most people (don't laugh, Jen). But this experience has prompted me to be thoroughly open and honest with those around me (lucky them). I can't explain why, and you're probably not interested anyway, but it feels palliative and liberating. I don't mean dumping on others, or at the expense of others, I just mean explaining how I feel and why. Of the many changes that cancer brings to one's life, maybe this is one that will stay with me.
I'm still having a difficult time with just letting people do things for me/us! Saying "yes" or "ok" is more difficult than one would think. I'm sure many of you have experienced this same inability to let others do for you....why do we do this? Maybe letting others do for us is one of the ways to create more joy in the world. I know I always feel good when I can do something for someone else, especially someone I love who needs help.
Thanks for all of the phone calls, wonderful messages and emails, and all that positive energy! Keep it coming - I'm gonna need it!
much love and peace,
monique
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