1st let me tell you about the wig shop. Arthur and I went to the nice wig shop to which we had been recommended. It was fine - it had the synthetic machine sewn, synthetic hand sewn, and the real hair wigs. These ranged in price from $325 to $1200. I tried on 2 of the hand stitched synthetic wigs ($399 - which insurance would reimburse - I have a prescription :) ) Anyway, they looked more real than I was expecting. My fear has always been that I didn't want to look like a poor cancer patient with a bad wig. I guess I never really knew there were good wigs because you don't know they are wigs! Now, all that in mind, as depressed as I am about my baldness, the wigs did not make me feel one tiny bit better! Reality is, everyone who knows me, knows I'm bald, and those that don't why would I care?? To quote myself from college (remember, Sharin?) "I don't have to impress jack shit!" So there you have it - no wig form me. At a completely different place, I found a cute little hat to wear to a wedding this weekend, as my bandanas just won't do! So I feel really good about that!
Next Chemo was yesterday. Port accessed at 9:45 ish, labs drawn, chemo - only for 1 1/2hours. Arthur and Chris both came to keep me company. Then we went to lunch and back up to see Dr. Shah. My echocardiagram that I had a couple weeks ago was just to get a baseline. All looks fine. The drug I am on - adrymicin - can cause heart problems immediately and/or can cause congenital heart problems down the road. But....those things happened much more frequently in the past, the drug has been tweaked and the doses have been much better adjusted, so I'm OK with it all.
Finally, today I went to have my Neulasta shot - the one that increases white blood cell production. It was a little more painful than the last time, but I made it through. I'm feeling better about the management of it this time, too, so I should be good to go.
That's all for now, except I'n still reeling in my new quilt! I've carried it everywhere for the last 2 days, hospital, school, home to bed, back to school, to the hospital, back to my room! I LOVE IT!!
peace & love,
m
Well, it sounds like you know what you want and I agree with the whole Jack shit thing! Even though you're having issues with baldness, you are doing well. You plan ahead and you are preparing yourself for what comes. That is bravery. Like I said, bravery does not mean that you don't get pissed or sad, just that you eventually start moving ahead, which you are doing. Love ya - you brave woman!
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